how can I grieve

if you do not leave?

how can I grieve

when the reality is hard to believe?

how can I grieve

while playing “Autumn Leaves”

when you still walk around this place to live?

how is it possible to achieve

my sole relief

out of a prayer whispered every eve?

allow me to grieve

because I need to live.

(modifikasi tulisan bulan Mei 2009 di Jakarta.)